Monday, January 10, 2011

Mom Fail

Tonight we:

had dinner at SuperTarget. Please don't judge...we are both mentally and physically exhausted and we intended to eat out but had to stop at Target first and thought, well hey! they have pretzels and cheese AND juice! that's a well balanced meal, right?

were those parents who wandered around a store later than our kids should have been awake.

are up at 11pm, prepping:
lunches for me, my guy and the 6 year old {Spring Semester starts for me tomorrow!}
trying to get Christmas stuff off the table and into boxes
preparing a house for our pt nanny to start.

Lots of changes happening- some I am ready to share, some not. {NO, I am not pregnant!}

I am super sad about leaving my youngest boys for 8 hours a day, two days a week.
BUT I did the evening college thing and I nev-ah see my 6 year old (especially with his dad having him during the week too) and this way I get to put my kiddos to bed at night and not miss all the things I was: Back To School Night, Daphne's choir concerts and acting performances, helping with homework. I will still be staying home with my babies 3 full weekdays and I don't have to leave until 10 in the morning on the other two days. So it's not horrid. I am just SO USED to being there for their every need. How do I explain all the little things only a mama knows? I am just sad about it.

I really, really like our nanny though- she came with glowing recommendations and the kids love her already.

Plus, it's 4 evenings or 2 full days. So I made the decision and here it begins. I will be aching for my littles tomorrow. :(


Stacia said...

Thinking of you today, sweet friend. I know how hard it is to be away from our babies. I think you are incredible for going to school. Really and truly.

And we eat at Super Target all the time. I'm not sure what it means, but Charlie even asks for it...

The Fab Four said...

Nicole, your first line made me giggle! And girl, we do what we gotta do.. sometimes we just have those days and although you may have looked at it as a "mom fail" moment, to the kiddos you were probably the best mom ever for letting them have dinner "out"!

Dawn said...

It's going to be a hard semester, but it will be good to be able to do all of those evening things! But then you'll be up later!!