Tuesday, September 7, 2010

My glass is empty.

I started taking these pills. The pills that were supposed to change my moods, my way of viewing this world.

They seemed to do the trick for awhile but all of a sudden... Everything sucks right now.

No matter how wonderful I know this life of mine is, right now all I can see is that the toilet seat is left up AGAIN, my kids make messes faster than I can clean them, I am arguing with Matt as if it were going out of style, I rush from home to grocery store to functions only to turn around and rush back home again, I am having to choose between keeping up with the laundry and the house or my homework, I fall asleep sitting up, I have endless guilt about the fact that I am a SAHM and STILL can't find the time to volunteer one precious hour at my son's school, and ZOMG does ANYONE else in this whole blasted house besides me pick up their dirty clothes off the ground?!?

My world feels gray. I wake up feeling like I want to cry-every day. I am sick of feeling like this. I don't even know how to end this on a positive note because I don't feel positive and I don't feel like trying to feel positive.

I am happy I am alive. I am going to go take a shower and drink some coffee. There. That's the best I got right now.

1 comment:

nmassie218 said...

I am so sorry, but as you know from ready my blog I feel like this a lot too. I wish I could be of more help to you.

Too bad we didn't live near each other to vent to one another.