I feel so down in the dumps. Just yucky...unmotivated...like I could sleep for two years straight.
My head feels so foggy...I can't seem to remember anything, therefore, my agenda book is FILLED with small little 'remember-this' notes everywhere!
I hate when I feel like this. Bi-polar at it's worst. I need to go to the store( we literally have 2 diapers, and a very empty fridge)yet it feels like going to the store is the same as running a marathon.
I started a bi-polar mood journal I had Matt print off and put together a year+ ago. I hope tracking my moods will be helpful to see the trends of my disease, as I swing up and down.
I just feel so crappy today that this has to be something I struggle with. I so desperately want to be happy, and productive and just NOT DEAL WITH THIS. I wish I could just smile and be positive and it all goes away...but that's not the case.
I DO smile and I DO try to be positive and I DO try to just work against it, but this is a chemical thing going on in my brain and it's so hard to fight that.
I hate writing yucky, negative, whiny, complaining posts but well, this is where I am at today and it's my blog meant to chronicle my life- and this is part of it.
So...it is what it is...going to attempt to put my head up and get through this day!(small attempt at positivity)