Can I blog too, Mama?

Life-10, Nicole-0

It's me vs. the world lately. Everything is falling apart. I try to breathe and I end up screaming. I am falling down this dark hole and I am powerless to stop it. I am overwhelmed- mentally, physically, emotionally. Every single time I think the worst has happened, something else hits.

I have missed so many classes, so many labs due to my kids being sick. I was getting my stuff ready for the day- made the boys oatmeal and a half mini bagel with peanut butter (they usually get cereal in a baggie on school mornings so I was doing well!).  I set Theo in his chair and he throws up all over. I pick him up and he also has diarrhea. I should have known it was coming- he was fevering on and off all yesterday and wanted nothing more than Mama to hold him. I just sighed- and of course bathed and loved my kid. 

So I have to miss my lab. Again. My lab partners want nothing to do with me, since I am the girl who never shows up. There are 3 other people in my lab group and they ignore my questions, sigh anytime I say anything and generally shun my presence. I am getting real life experience with how cruel people can be- you would think someone might wonder what's going on but no, it's sufficient enough to just judge me. I had planned to switch lab groups today but would you want me as a lab partner? I probably wouldn't either. 

And these are just the topics I can blog about. I wish I could just disappear. 

bring the rain!

Life hurts right now- in so many ways.This song is blessing my heart today. I am posting it here for it to {hopefully} bless yours as well!

Happy Lurve Day!

I bounce back and forth between thinking Valentine's Day is a cheesy Hallmark holiday and love-love-loving it while wishing-hoping-praying Matt could stay home for the occasion!

But either way, it's a good excuse for a date night-and so we had one! a day early! I love my guy! This has been a hard season in our relationship and it's so good for us to have time together- with no little souls to tend to for a few hours.

       I just get to focus on him and he on me and I fall in love all over again.                                                                                      ::happy sigh::

Happy Valentine's Day Friends! I am wishing-hoping-praying it's full of love (from spouses, children, families or friends) for each and every one of you! 

Don't be a jerk. That's all.

I know I said that I wasn't going to blog while in my funk but guess what?!
I changed my mind!  {I do that sometimes.}

and I am poking my head in to remind you {and me} to BE NICE! I have seriously encountered every jerk known to man today- and then some.  At about 2pm I started to wonder...
Is there a sign on my head that says, Please stomp on me today??

I am throwing in the towel and going to bed because if I am up for one more minute I will need either:
a) massive doses of caffeine  b) Xanax or c) copious amounts of hot between the sheets action, or ALL THREE! ha!

See how tired I am? I am talking about my sex life now.

Good night!

What makes you happy?

Lately, if I am being honest, it's not much. Which is why things have been pretty quiet on the blog front- i just didn't feel the need to pass on these yucky negative vibes.

This morning, I had battles about brushing teeth, getting shoes on and why exactly the yogurt snack from Friday was: 1) uneaten and 2) still left in his backpack with my 6 year old ie the boy who fights every single thing I say. Ugh.
Then I dropped him off at school, helped get my 1 & 2 year old dressed and teeth brushed before 10am (victory!) and we headed to Target.

Target makes me happy.
 So does successfully disciplining my two year old and his tantrums at Target by
a) staying calm {it is the key, people}
b) giving my crazy dude choices: {You may walk beside the cart with Mama or get in the cart. }
c) by giving him a timeout when he chose not to obey right then and there. {did you know there are corners e.v.e.r.y.w.h.e.r.e?}

We had a successful shopping trip! Also known as,  I took a one and two year old to Target, purchased everything on my list, filled a prescription and made it through the checkout and out to the car with nary one single screaming episode. WAHOO!!

and that folks, makes me happy.

And also this:

                                                     Source: Happy things



this:

                                                  Source: zappos.com




and this:

source: g1wallz

       What makes YOU happy, friends?

((top image source: Netpaths))